Every Time I Blink

I didn’t see you’d grown so tall
until tonight, when I wear my heels
for your farewell dinner at Mario’s
and you still come up to my chin.

The clock plays tricks.
It has galloped to this night,
squeezed all your years
into the space of minutes.

You’re gloved in that dress I bought myself
in last year’s Monsoon sale,
and squirrelled in the wardrobe
for the perfect occasion.
It looks better on you.
I don’t remember when wearing my clothes
stopped being a game you played
on wet Sundays
clopping around in my shoes
six sizes too big.

Barefoot, you stand at the mirror,
gelling and sculpting,
and when you turn to tell me
how gorgeous I look, your eyes
don’t need to lift to mine.
I see a hundred faces I have known,
a kaleidoscope of yous,
six months old, two years,
seventeen.

Every time I blink
the kaleidoscope turns,
the pattern shifts,
and I glimpse
another facet of you.

You slide your feet into shoes
I haven’t seen before
and your arm into mine
Come on, you say,
I’m ready.

And I blink.

first published in a fine line, Spring 2020

  20 comments for “Every Time I Blink

  1. Lyosha Varezhkina
    21/10/2020 at 8:54 am

    Great poem very deep and touching. thank you for sharing this today

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    • Trish
      21/10/2020 at 2:28 pm

      Thank you

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  2. 21/10/2020 at 4:44 am

    This is beautiful, so full of emotion. I think it does a great job that captures the feelings and emotions that are triggered by the fact that children grow up WAY too quickly! One minute they are tripping trying to walk in your oversized heels and the next moment they are wearing similar heels to cross the stage at graduation. Time flies and we shouldn’t take any moment for granted.

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    • Trish
      21/10/2020 at 2:28 pm

      Always feels like our kids are a step ahead of us!

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  3. The Prepping Wife
    21/10/2020 at 12:17 am

    Talking to my favorite person on the planet a couple of days ago, we were talking about when we first met, almost 15 years ago, and how we’ve grown together and changed. It was a very nostalgic conversation and brought up a lot of memories. Reading this lovely poem, I had that same feeling from you and your experience. It is beautifully written, Trish.

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    • Trish
      21/10/2020 at 2:26 pm

      Lovely to reconnect with old friends like that.

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  4. 19/10/2020 at 8:10 pm

    There is so much imagery in your poem and it’s wonderful to read and interpret your experiences.

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    • Trish
      19/10/2020 at 8:26 pm

      thank you

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  5. 19/10/2020 at 12:31 am

    Such a beautiful poem.

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    • Trish
      19/10/2020 at 1:29 am

      Thank you

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  6. 18/10/2020 at 10:03 am

    I loved this! I could really feel the emotions when reading. Thanks for sharing.

    Liked by 1 person

    • Trish
      18/10/2020 at 4:49 pm

      Thank you!

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  7. 17/10/2020 at 5:55 pm

    I absolutely loved reading this! It brought a tear to my eye. Thank you for posting.

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    • Trish
      18/10/2020 at 12:20 am

      Made my daughter cry too!

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  8. B.A.
    16/10/2020 at 7:22 am

    A lovely updated version of the song, “Sunrise, Sunset” from Fiddler on the Roof. Hurrah for your creativity!

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    • Trish
      16/10/2020 at 8:28 pm

      That’s a song I haven’t heard for years!

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  9. Linda Kennington
    15/10/2020 at 8:38 am

    Beautiful, Trish. I can see and feel the tenderness and nostalgia in your writing.

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    • Trish
      15/10/2020 at 2:08 pm

      Thank you Linda 🙂

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  10. 15/10/2020 at 3:18 am

    Beautiful expression…🙏🙏

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    • Trish
      15/10/2020 at 2:08 pm

      Glad you liked it.

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